Absolution Clinic

 

i never receive her name
her lips gone broken again 
why am i running in chains bitch? 
And whose to loosen the shape?

because the sun, wasn't mean to leave 
Our moons offending earth 
i cannot contain this

but in release these windows break wide open 
release these visions of self destructing vows

Shake no malice from me 
the blankets drawn to be saved
Im fucking caught in the mirrors flood
No caution nailed to the frame

because the sun, wasn't mean to bleed
Our moons impending worth 
You cannot contain this

but in release these windows break wide open
release these visions of self destructing vows

and all of the way
I've been convinced that lying is better than lying awake
the bed that i made
you kill me for something 
a forgiveness i never gave

do you blanket disease? 
you've walked me for miles
never could let me believe 
like a cancer

But in release these windows break wide open
Release these visions of self destructing vows

And all of the way 
I've been convinced that lying is better than lying awake 
The bed that I made 
You kill me for something 
A forgiveness I never gave 
Do you comfort disease? 
I've walked this far 
Couldn't you let me be?

I still haven't suffered enough
All your Holy Ghosts need friends
They're lonely

I still haven't suffered enough 
All your holy ghosts 
They're my friends

 

 

The Dolls House

 

count the pulse (lalalalalalala)
count the pulse
connecting wired
i wish i may i might ride them 
mime downward cycles
spiraling toward 2 and 3 
i hope you wont let go of me
i wont break the cycle

i made this perfectly 
in the image of 
in the image of nothing

barbie is dead (lalalalalalala) 
strangled out loud like a whore
and you had such a secret for cutting 
now the knife really dont shine so bright 
and there never really was any light

i could give you an intervention
i could show you a prayer
how to become plastic
so you'll never rot like them

holy ghosts are only ghosts
swallow it down they want to 
see the surface 
they're in search of
and they're still watching

holy ghosts are only ghosts
swallow it down they want to 
see the surface 
they're in search of 
and they're still watching you

count the polarity 
inside of your veils of secret stairways 
and you'd never lend the sand
towards sleeping on top of your vase of favor 
we're one body under moral oblivion
and you sing to me 
and you speak to me 
and you sing to me
and you shouldn't be
im not there

ill see you down at the bottom

holy ghosts are only ghosts
swallow it down they want to 
see the surface 
they're in search of
and they're still watching

holy ghosts are only ghosts
swallow it down they want to 
see the surface 
they're in search of 
and they're still watching you

and they're still watching you

 

Warming

 

i want to go running 
somewhere in the fading
somewhere far

i want to be breathing 
for as long as it takes me to notice
something warm

ill go something like a motive
blanketing some kind of reason 
never wrong

ill go as someone without restraining 
you'll never call me a victim 
never call me warm

call me warm

am i degrading?
your high value isn't a calling
towards everyone who worships a saying

i hear the hollow "fucks" your spreading 
your narcissistic mending
though nothing about you permeates 
through to me

ill go something like a motive
blanketing some kind of reason 
never wrong

ill go as someone with out restraining 
you'll never call me a victim
you'll never call me warm

you'll never ever call me warm

analyze that
analyze that
analyze that
analyze that as you wish

 

Circadian Psychorhythms

 

i sorted photographs 
forced myself to watch
found a home in her still vials 
art is severed chords which 
burnt and umbilical feel as dead now
as when i died 
ill die

her god rests in the dirt 
absurd and controversial 
ill atrophy before i feel benign 
feed the sex in her mind// she comes 
she needs me to kill her outer ease
it might be all im worth

the calm in a warm pulse burns 
until the edges of the worms
that long to feel gasoline
art is severed chords that 
though blurred and biblical dont define me 
dont you fucking define me 
you'll never find me

her god rests in the dirt 
absurd and controversial 
ill atrophy before i feel benign 
feed the sex in her mind// she comes 
she needs me to kill her outer ease
it might be all im worth

my nurse calms all my storms
put her hands on my broken face
she swears im still alive
hears me in her thoughts and lends
abstract circles and psychology 
i often cried for them

you should have loved me then 
you should have told me then 
you should have calmed me then 
you shouldn't have broken this 
i know that while you've broken since 
your body should know my sins 
you should have pulled me in

you should have pulled me in

 

Soft Focus

 

a canaries out my window 
a canaries out my window 
a canaries out my window again

a canaries out my window (its black)
a canaries out my window (its deaf)
theres a man outside my window (who's false)

theres the woman that took my world 
into the void
made love to fire
and pestilence

i haste now 
through patience 
i hate now 
as i am 
i bleed now 
from the tongue
i move through this 
soft focus

theres a motion i still recall
out of dry days 
your soviet face
it never faded away

i haste now
through patience 
i love now 
i love again 
i bleed now 
from stumbling 
i move through this 
soft focus

her tide will come to make amends 
her tide will crash

she hears the silence i've become 
(and I move through this soft..)
she hears the silence i've become 
(and I move through this soft..) 
she hears the silence i've become 
(and I move through this soft..)

and her tide will crash

 

The Guild

 

We are insignificant
Just watchers through storms 
We are so divided in catatonic tide

We aren't lovers 
Just fish hooks in good wine
You are so gorgeous in such a dim light

" Now thats a hell of a way to fly, boy
Thats a hell of a way to fall
Thats a hell of a way to live.. " 
She said I'd " miss us all.."

She said she'd swallow me whole
Swallow me whole 
Swallow me whole 
For all your scripture
You still cannot let go

We arent wishing flowers 
Just blessing the air
We are so considerate of 
Popular demand and slaves bread

We arent a revolution
My friend you are not changing shit
I've seen the best of all of you dear
I don't speak for myself

She said there'd be no way through violence
Must embrace the vision 
No waste of violence 
Just a victim 
A starving, hysterical hole

Swallow me whole
Swallow me whole 
For all you've stolen 
For all you've held and broke

Fuck your old system now
Fuck your old system now 
Fuck your old system now

Fuck your old sentiment
Fuck the moans in your bed
Against the waves breaking last

I see you've found a way 
With all your haste 
To let a good thing drown 
Heaven found a way to help you out 
For all your words 
And all you break
Your fears that wouldn't hesitate
Your burning 
You've burnt out our Guild

You're burning 
You've burnt out our Guild

 

words AND MUSIC by charlie adrianus parks